Half Dead,Half Alive

Hello everyone, please accept my warm greetings. Its true that I haven't been here for long, or more accurately, haven't had the courage to put up what I kept writing in here. But I am back.
Its a new poem. Hope you all enjoy it.

                                Half Dead, Half Alive

                    Am I dead? Or alive?

                                                In this world full of lies,

                    Does it even matter, in the least?

                                                 Or is it just a lustful disgrace.

                    Does my life have any value?

                                                 In a world, trapped in a vicious loop,

                    Is it just my lust to live?

                                                 Or is it my obligation to die?

                    Should I really blame the world?

                                                  Or is it I who should take the blame?

                    I am half dead, half alive,

                                                   Yet maybe I am not obliged to die.

                    But to endure every suffering,

                                                    In this cruel world.

                                                                                                  -With love,

                                                                                                         From Shadow.